I’m a professional killer. Not the kind who kills wasps that sting or ants that crawl. No, I’m the real thing, the guy who, when you need him in the worst kinda way, gets rid of someone. You’re wonderin’ how I sleep at night. My wife, who complains about my snoring, knows I don’t have a problem in that department. Don’t believe me? I’ll explain. For one thing, I’m never around when it happens, not like the guys you read about in the Godfather books. What’s more, I’m not Italian. The Bugles came from Ireland after one of the famines they have over there, the name might’ve been O’Bugle for all I know. Never taken the time to look it up, which you could do if you got on the Internet and had nothing to do but sit on your ass all day. Even if I did, what good’s that gonna do me. Think I’ll find a rich uncle? a loaded aunt? Fat chance. Like my old man, they were all nickel and dimers, even before the Depression, and would take any job they could find: dig a ditch; pick the fruit, clean the stalls of a horse barn. Which my old man did in Kentucky for three years before he went to jail. Only thing I inherited was his strength. First time I killed a guy, before I knew what I was doin’, I used my hands, strangled an eye doctor after this Romeo dumped a patient of his. For somebody younger, I figured, and in less than a minute he was dead, slumped to the floor like a side of beef. Not a pretty sight, but I got a family to feed. My wife’s from Kansas City, where they built the first railroad, she claims. Her family lives with us, the whole trainload, her parents, her two good-for-nothing brothers, along with our own kids they’ve dragged nothing but trouble into my life. Junior and Junior Two won’t stay in school no matter how many times I tan their hides. Our youngest, Abigail, has a speech defect, something the doctors say can’t be fixed. She’ll have a hell of a time finding a husband when the time comes, and if she does find one, most likely with some kinda defect too, blind maybe, he’ll move straight into my house. They live with me because I’m the only one making money, enough to pay for her and my families. Her two brothers dick around with a band. Paulie plays the piano, knows five or six songs he can bang without havin’ to search for the right keys. Jackson, the so-called singer, slurs his words. Why? because after four o’clock in the afternoon he’s drunk as a skunk. How he stays on his feet I haven’t figured out. They made a CD, sold a few, but most are in a cardboard box in the attic. Six days out of seven they’re in that dive on Eighth Street. During their breaks, they’re playin’ pool or tryin’ to pick up nurses from Saint Xavier, two blocks away. I shouldn’t complain. At least there not suckin’ me dry with medical bills. Babs’s father has a heart condition. The pills he takes for the bad ticker costs me a bundle, even with Medicare, there’s a gap, Babs says. Her mother just had her eightieth birthday. A month ago she traded her walker in for a wheelchair. In that shorta time she has to be lifted outta the chair, which won’t fit, and carried into the bathroom. I had to buy a van with an elevator to haul her bony ass around town. And not just to her doctor appointments, she wants to go with Babs to the mall or the beauty parlor. Don’t ask me why.
Last month, I did a guy in Chicago and I’m still waitin’ for the second half of my twenty thousand. They’ll pay, they always do, but they like to string me along. They got no idea how much time I put into it. Same with every other job. At the front end, there’s a ton of work, you gotta prepare, make a careful plan, which can take weeks. And then you gotta make sure it goes the way it’s supposed to. You can’t do anything half ass, like in the movies where you walk up to some guy and whack him, then hop in a car and haul ass to Mexico. It’s not that simple, not if you wanta keep from being strapped on a gurney where they stick a needle in your arm. You wanta keep from bein’ strapped in you better be damn sure it looks right. Think that’s easy? You do you’re livin’ on the friggin’ moon.
Take the last one, a guy in Chicago they wanted me to snuff. He owed some people a lot of money, the guy on the phone said, which to be honest I like to hear. I don’t get my rocks off doin’ a guy for no reason. So I was okay with this one, only thing was I had to follow this joker around for a solid week. I couldn’t figure out where to do him. He had a state-of-the-art alarm system at his lake view mansion. No big surprise in a neighborhood like that where all those rich people put in every kind of sensor there is so they can show the guy next door they’ve got more than he has. Mister Big Shot that I’m tryin’ to take down drove a BMW 640. Six days a week he cruises to his law firm. A car like that would’ve left my rental in the dust if he’d seen it, so I had to stay way the hell behind him. Because of that I lost him three or four times, and each one had to hit the gas, swerve around cars, like I was drivin’ the Indy 500 just to get near the bastard. After a week I figured it had to be in the garage. His building looked brand new, even had the smell. First five floors was parkin’. And what was in those spaces? Not a pickup in any one of them, I swear to God. Had to put a suit on to make it look like I belonged in a place like that. The days I was there it was muggier’n hell, one of those smog things in the middle of summer. And here I am on my back, looking at everything, holding the stuff I normally use. Shit load of good it did me. Everything was hidden. Tappin’ into that alarm system was like tryin’ to break into Fort Knox with a wire cutter. I gave up. Came back a day later. Usin’ as little pressure as I could, I pushed the plastic onto the tailpipe, stuff was like Play Dough. I won’t go into how hard it was to get that shit. This ain’t Iraq where you can buy it on every street corner. Anyway, there I am, on my back, tryin’ to get it in place, all the while keepin’ one eye out for the chink who kept circlin’ around in his golf cart. A flashing red light on top, the first time it swept across my legs I about peed in my pants. But I kept goin’, tryin’ to shape the Play Doughy stuff around a rod, the part beneath the driver’s seat. But it’s hard to get to, I’m blinkin’ the sweat outta my eyes, when from out of the blue, I think about my blood pressure medicine. I’d forgotten to take it. Why I didn’t have a heart attack I’ll never know, cause my ticker was about to jump out of my chest. You’d think I’d be used to it after thirty years, but you don’t get used to it, you keep thinkin’ about that needle in your arm, what it’s going to feel like when they strap you in. That’s when you really do shit in your pants.
I need some time off. Go someplace, away from Babs and the old folks who’ve turned our house into a nursing home. Wouldn’t miss the worthless brothers either, or the kids who are driving me crazy. I’d leave my cell phone. I’ve had enough phone calls, all those jobs, all those years. And for what? For Babs who sits in front of the television and paints her toenails. For her parents who barely say a word? For her two brothers who never lift a finger unless they’re hoistin’ a brew?
I have an account at First Federal Babs doesn’t know about. Not a lot but enough to last a couple of weeks. Be easy to tell her I was gonna be out of town for a while. I could do that, fly to Miami, stay in a nice hotel, one with a big pool where I’d plunk my ass on a lounge chair, stretch my tired legs out, order one of those blue things they serve, you know the frozen ice with a little umbrella. Sip from a straw and just relax, watch the babes in their bikinis who stroll around the pool. I could do that, head to Miami. Might even pack my Viagra. You never know.